Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Rainy Day Sewing

When I woke this morning the sky was dark and gray and the rain poured freely from the sky. It seemed like a good day to break out my seeing machine and work on a project I've been thinking about for a while. 

I have several tote bags. I'm not a purse kind of girl, but books and sweatshirts don't fit in my pockets. One of my biggest issues with totes, though, is that they tend to turn into black holes for small items. So, I made a detachable organizer for my bags out of old tee shirts. 


I sketched out a pattern this morning based on something I had seen on the Internet. 


It took a while to get started because I haven't used a sewing machine in over a year. 


I hand sewed much of it because of my less than perfect design and inexperience with the machine. 


It came together quite nicely, though I don't love the colors. 


Despite my problems with the aesthetics of the organizer, it does the job well. I'm already enjoying the extra organization and the ease of finding my wallet quickly. 

August Break: Home

I've lived here for about 14 years now. Maybe fewer considering how often I've slept elsewhere since graduating high school. Now I feel this is less my home than it is my parents' house. I'm in between homes these days. No longer a child. Not quite an adult. 

Friday, May 24, 2013

Review: American Gods by Neil Gaiman

I have been on a bit of a Neil Gaiman kick since I saw the novelist/occasional Doctor Who writer at An Evening of Awesome back in January. American Gods is the third book of his I have read and it came highly recommended (because when I go to Halloween parties, I talk about books, apparently).

Neil Gaiman has a real talent for taking our world an augmenting it ever so slightly. In each of the three books of his I have read (Neverwhere, Coraline, and American Gods), he creates a world that exists parallel to our own. They are parallel worlds that are just beyond most of our reaches, but some people cross over.

(Potential spoilers ahead!)

In American Gods, that parallel existence is the realm of gods. In American Gods, Gaiman explores the idea that, maybe, gods do exist. But, he challenges the reader, we do not believe in them because they exist - they exist because we believe in them. When cultures are transported to new lands, those gods come with them. America, the great melting pot, is rife with gods, old and new. Many have been forgotten - and to be forgotten is to die. Many are on the verge of being forgotten.

Gaiman tells the story of Shadow, a recent widower and even more recent ex-con, who is introduced to the world of gods by a mysterious employer known as Wednesday. Through Shadow's experiences, we are introduced to the old and nearly forgotten gods, as well as the new gods of America - media, internet, fame. A storm is coming, a battle between gods old and new, and Shadow becomes a key player in the politics of war.

The beauty of this book is the complexity. Gaiman explores the power of belief and worship in an idea while crafting rich characters who evolve in surprising ways. The book is unpredictable and contains several subplots which are woven together with skill and grace. Gaiman expertly keeps the reader just out of reach of understanding the big picture. He also avoids predictable plot arcs and logical progressions. Every time the reader becomes comfortable with the story's progression, he abruptly alters its course.

The scope of the plot, however, detracted slightly from the connection I felt with the characters. The book is punctuated with vignettes which enhance the picture Gaiman is painting, but also pull the reader away from the central story numerous times. Shadow, a purposely dispassionate and borderline apathetic character, is not strong enough to securely anchor the story emotionally. I was hooked on the plot - the book kept me up late at night reading - but I was not invested in Shadow until over halfway through the story.

Despite its minor shortcomings, I recommend this book. It is a fine example of well-crafted story-telling and causes one to consider what the term "god" means in America today.

Watching Squirrels



Ein was standing like this for several minutes, watching the squirrels jump from branch to branch.

Friday, March 22, 2013

My battle with yoga

I think I'm approaching yoga in the wrong way.

That sentence alone means I'm approaching it the wrong way. Paradox?

What I mean is, I am struggling with yoga. Too often I unroll my mat as a means to an end, instead of a journey. I fight with my body as I contort myself more than I should (and sometimes less than I should). I want to be like those graceful figures that show up in my newsfeed, effortlessly twisting their tan bodies into camel pose. Sometimes yoga feels like a competition, and I'm in last place.

I fight with my mind as I try to push these negative feelings away. I fight to find the joy and pleasure in doing something that is not easy. I fight to appreciate my efforts.

Because I fight, I lose.

Yoga is not a fight. It is a journey. It is not about reaching a benchmark or completing a level. It is about finding peace in focus, strength in discomfort, and quiet in struggle. It is taking something that is hard and accepting that it is hard. But pushing myself just a little bit more anyway. It's about letting go of the world and just being me, in my body, and in my mind.

Part of that journey, for me, is giving up that fight without giving up on myself. I am struggling, but I am not done.


Are you struggling with yoga, too? What works for you? What doesn't?